For a period of time I felt angry towards society for not treating women as equals. I mistook my anger for passion and lost my compassion and eternal optimism. “I hate all men” became a popular mindset and that energy followed me everywhere. A problem with ideologies is that they blind you to other ways of initiating change. Anger did nothing but put me in a place of victimhood, ultimately disconnecting me from myself, my feminine creative energy and a world full of good.
When I looked even closer, my valid anger came from my unresolved issues surrounding a challenging childhood and the dysfunction that subsequently followed me. That anger and trauma I saw in everything and everyone, tainting my world view. I saw women as the victims because I saw myself as the victim. I then began to understand that our everyday life experiences are a direct reflection of what’s going on internally. This epiphany not only completely changed my perspective but changed me and I was liberated. Putting energy into things that doesn’t serve you ends up feeding the monster you are trying to make smaller. I refuse to feed that monster because it makes us all smaller.
After going on a social media hiatus I can now see that the echo chamber I found myself in inadvertently does more harm than good. It has a way of influencing you to believe that in order to be a good person you need to follow the mindset of the herd; having a differing opinion can immediately put your morals into question. A difficult pill for me to swallow is that even with the best intentions I played a roll in that echo chamber, using a platform to tell people what was right and wrong based purely on a limited perception that came from a place of fear and pain. I no longer want to ‘influence’ from fear and pain.
My original vision and intention for this platform hasn’t changed very much, only now do I have a greater awareness of myself to explore different ways of initiating change. I am constantly expanding, and as I grow so does my perspective. The Lipstick Lens helped me reach this point but it’s time to see things through a new lens.
Welcome to The Lens.
